I've had a FWB relationship with my best friend for awhile now. He's slept with 2 other girls since sleeping with me and last night there was a third. I honestly thought that the next time that would happen...we would've ended our fwb relationship first. I have feelings for him..surprise, surprise right? I can't stop digging myself a deeper and deeper hole. I can't get out.
Some things he does makes me feel like he has feelings for me too. But then this happens. I'm really stupid. I keep getting myself hurt. My heart hurts. Bad. Real bad. I don't ever want to lose him though. Since I have feelings for him, obviously I want more than "just friends." This chance of it ever happening seems to be getting slimmer and slimmer. When I feel I'll just give up and let it go, he makes me feel he likes me. It's just a stupid, vicious cycle of me deceiving myself. Why can't I just step back and see what's happening and what will end up happening..? I'M GOING TO GET MY HEART BROKEN.
I'm trying really hard to just move past it and try to get over him. A YouTube beauty guru said, "you just need to step back." If I step back and do my own thing and he realizes that he wants to be with me then sure that's great. If not, I just need to let it go..let him go. Easier said than done, but I'm going to try. Hell, I'm going to give it my all. It'll be for the best.
"The best way to get rid of the pain is to feel the pain. And when you feel the pain and go beyond it, you'll see there's a very intense love that is wanting to awaken itself." - Deepak Chopra
"Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it." - Jacques Prévert
"We must accept finite disappointment, but we must never lose infinite hope." - Martin Luther King
“The best way to make your dreams come true is to wake up.” - Paul Valery
"Chance does nothing that has not been prepared beforehand." - Alexis de Tocqueville
"Learn how to be happy with what you have while you pursue all that you want." - Jim Rohn
I'm going to keep telling myself that things could be worse. It's not that bad. Everything will get better. I know it will.
Keeping my chin up. :)
