BFF?

I thought friends were the ones you can always count on, especially the one(s) you call "best friend". I thought they were the ones that you can talk to..about men/women, family, work, school..anything.

I used to be able to do that with my best friend, but lately it seems things have changed..a lot. I rarely talk to her anymore. I don't even text her that often anymore. Actually, I did until she didn't reply some of my texts, and "some" as in quite a few -- to the point where I've begun to stop replying her texts out of spite. I know it sounds silly and when I read back these blogs I'll probably think I'm an idiot. It's just that...it's kind of upsetting how our relationship has changed so much. I mean, I've know her ever since kindergarten for gods sake! That's what, 17 years? 

It's not that I don't try hanging out with her. It seems like every time I try, she's too busy. Too busy with school, too busy with her family, too busy with her coworkers, too busy with her friends from school. Anyone else see a pattern here? She has time to hang out with everyone else but me. I'm not trying to be selfish or anything (and yes, I realize after re-reading this it sounds like "me, me, me"), but I just miss the times where we hang out together. I miss the times where we laugh at silly things. I miss the times where we cry with/to each other because of whatever problems, big or small, we had. What makes me more mad is that I would see pictures of her going out with her coworkers. It's getting quite frequent actually. I understand that everyone has a whole lot of other people in their lives and she's not an exception, but am I not going to be in her life anymore? 

Some people's best friend will actually be their BFF. Their relationship will probably last until the day they die. Some other BFFs won't be that lucky. I know it takes effort to make these relationships lasts, but it takes more than one person to make that work -- kind of like a romantic relationship with your other half. I don't know if mine's will be my BFF but I'm not quite ready to give up yet. It's been too long and we've helped each other through enough hardships to give up on this best friend.